Tch. Nobody knows anything, that's the first thing you need to remember.
( His nose scrunches a little, thoughtful. )
My first time was with a woman almost twice my age. I couldn't afford anyone else and I wanted it - done, I suppose? I wanted to choose it. It felt very important at the time, to be rid of my virginity.
( He'd been young, and growing into something prettier than he should have been. Sneaking out had made sense, he doesn't sound even remotely ashamed of it. )
She was nice, matronly. I didn't know what to do with any part of my body and she didn't make me feel bad about that. I didn't know what I liked back then, or that women weren't really for me, and it was awkward and a little silly and I thought afterwards that I didn't know what the fuss was about. But it didn't change anything, I wasn't different. I was still me. So even if you choose to and it's not what you think it doesn't have to mean anything, mm?
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( His nose scrunches a little, thoughtful. )
My first time was with a woman almost twice my age. I couldn't afford anyone else and I wanted it - done, I suppose? I wanted to choose it. It felt very important at the time, to be rid of my virginity.
( He'd been young, and growing into something prettier than he should have been. Sneaking out had made sense, he doesn't sound even remotely ashamed of it. )
She was nice, matronly. I didn't know what to do with any part of my body and she didn't make me feel bad about that. I didn't know what I liked back then, or that women weren't really for me, and it was awkward and a little silly and I thought afterwards that I didn't know what the fuss was about. But it didn't change anything, I wasn't different. I was still me. So even if you choose to and it's not what you think it doesn't have to mean anything, mm?